Interviewing

Tomorrow and Thursday, I will be interviewing. I have never interviewed for a job for 16 hours before. I have never been the internal candidate in a job search before. There will be many new experiences. Here's what I know deep in my soul...

• I love where I live. I won't be leaving anytime soon.
• Whatever happens in this interview/search process, I already have a job. I won't be losing it.
• I can refuse the job if it's offered to me. After 16 hours of interviews, I may decide it's not the right job for me. That's very empowering.
• I am good at what I do. That doesn't mean it is necessarily the right "vocation" for me. I have finally figured out that what I need to explore more fully to free myself more is what my vocation is in relationship to the world, not to a particular occupation or job or even institution. I am called to be a minister. I'm ready to claim that. Now, I need to figure out how that particular vocation will clothe me, what it will look like as it takes shape in my unique form and character.
• Whatever happens tomorrow, I have friends who love me and care about me and couldn't care less whether I get this job or not. That gives me a far greater sense of who I am than any job I could ever get.
• I am going to be focused and articulate and do the best I can the next two days. I will answer from my gut as much as possible, not just my head, and in doing so, I'll know if I don't get the job, it wasn't meant to be.
• I may be sad if I don't get it, but I'll be okay.

These are awfully good things to know going into an interview. I may well be one of the luckiest people I know.